She talked about “starting over”
After my writing of “divorce” then continue to “heartache”, i guess it’s time for us to “start over”. Don’t you think so?
From all those period I’ve been through, i still on process to start over. Maybe it’s because of such experience that makes me more careful with everything. It’s could be bad or good because at this moment i know exactly what i want in my next relationship. So it’s cut off unnecessary guy in my life. Shortens my list and strengthens my needs. People always say “start over.. forget the past.. find a new one..” like it is the easy things to do. But its not like flipped the hands and it never going to be easy.
Why ? Because somehow you still carried much worries in your heart, you protect your heart more than before, you hold your self so tight till no room for other to come in, you buried your self with all those pain, you withdrawal your self from the possibility of hurt, and many more.
Honesty I still dealing with all those kind above. Trying my best to fix my self one by one. Doesn’t mean that im not heal. For me, its because we need more courage to start over than the other person do.
Hurting, losing, betraying, and all those painful moment, needs more time to heal. So, if you are dealing with all of that, please, listen to your heart. Do not push. Do not hurry. Do not blame your self. Everything takes more time to heal. Your soul needs more time to calm.
How long is exactly we need time to heal? I don’t know, it could be 3 months, 3 years, 13 years or maybe forever. What i know, it will gone when you find someone who could speak to your soul. Someone who will reach you with his heart. Someone who use his love to heal you.
But, Somehow that person would not gonna be your “forever”, somehow it’s just a temporary person in your life. Someone that you think that he will be your last but he’s not. And when you found this person, please, do not cry too much when you lose him. Don’t drown too deep when he leave you. Since i believe, there is a person who walk in our path for some reason. He is probably an answer for all of your prayer. He come to show you that what you are asking for is real. He is real. He just not your last. He just a prove that what you are asking for in a man, is exist. He is exist. He just not your “forever”.
I wish you will think about this when you feel down. Not because you are not worth the happiness. Because God plan something bigger in your life. Because you are a warrior, you are a survivor, and you deserve much more the goodness in life.
Its prove that you are ready to start over. Start from begining. Start without any fear. Start without any expectation. Start because your heart ready to love again. Start because your soul ready to smile again. I wont guarentee it would be smooth this time and you are never hurt. But maybe its worth than before. We can’t always ask the rainbow without the rain, arent we ?
So, for the brave in you, for the spirit in you, for the good in you, i wish you have someone who loves you enough to makes your soul smile and your heart dancing.
I wish you have a very big heart to search for your big life
I wish you have unconditional fear to wait for the right love to you
I wish you will find a great soul for your great heart
And i wish all those thing for my self as well
I wish all of us will find the happiness in our life